"The truth is, I want to feel my pain. I want to feel the sadness and the near-burning nostalgia of leaving a place and a people I love, because it deserves it. Everything beautiful that we experience in life, when it suffers or comes to an end, is going to be filled with this kind of aching sorrow. But that is a good thing, because it means that it had significance in your life, that it cannot be easily dismissed like so many other things you let roll off your back. To be sad when the end comes is to pay homage to everything that was great, to all that it gave you, to who you are because of it. And yes, it is “weak” to cry and write letters and talk about your sadness. It is “weak” to rest your head on someone’s chest and welcome being consoled. It is “weak” to focus, at least temporarily, on the pain you feel.But it is also wonderful. It is a moment in which you feel alive, human, and fully connected to the things that you touch in life. There are few moments where we lose or change or move on from something great, and those moments do make us weak. To be strong and silent in the face of them — to deny that they have touched you and will leave a great absence in your life — is to dismiss its importance. You may find yourself needing the support of friends and family, to be reassured and have your hand held. You may need to be reminded of what is good, and that the pain will subside. You may need to lean on someone. And that’s okay."
If I could explain love in one word, it would have to be trust.
Trust that he doesn’t cheat on you, trust that he doesn’t lie to you, trust that he really likes you, trust that he will always be there for you, trust that he can go to a party and not get high or drunk, trust that you don’t have…
i hate getting close to people because then they realize i’m a piece of shit
most common thought: damn haha im going to have to deal with that sooner or later
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Pero pa’no kung kasalanan ko? Pa’no kung ako talaga ‘yung mali. Pa’no kung ‘di na naman ayos ‘yung inasal ko. Pa’no kung may nagawa na naman akong hindi tama. Pa’no kung ako pala talaga ‘yung nag-give up. Pa’no kung ako talaga ‘yung nang-iwan sa ere. Pa’no kung hindi ko naman talaga pinanindigan. Pa’no kung sinukuan ko pala nang hindi ko alam. Pa’no kung lahat pala ng ginawa ko, kamalian o kagaguhan. Pa’no kung kasalanan ko naman pala lahat all this fcking time….
Ah puta. Ang dami ko na namang tanong. ‘Yun nga lang, puro tanong lang; wala namang sagot. Ang dami na namang what-ifs. Ang dami na namang komplikasyon. Shet, ganu’n pa rin eh. Parang pinagulo ko lang lalo.
"You deserve better."
Now that I think of it,
………no, I don’t.
He does. You do.